97th!

haha.. hello! i fell sick yesterday.... the feeling sucks i tell you...
anyways... sry i dont have any hello baby vids to share today...

maybe next time... =) my head is full of hello baby now.. lol...

anyhow! its new years eve! which means only one thing... schools gonna start... =(

well i have to wake up early for orientation day tomorrow... nites! i mean morning! =)

yes more hello baby post! =)

hey! 1st things 1st... ok... errr...

ok lets start again.... hello! im back from Penang! =)

2 days and 1 night...

eating spicy food for 2 consecutive day+idontknowhowmuchsugar+limited hour of sleep=BAD

yeah Penang was awesome.. stayed at the same hotel again... Paradise Sandy Beach Resort... lol.. its like me 51st home... XD but the worst part was... i got stung by a friggin jellyfish... dang! the feeling sucks i tell you! sucks! its like...... argh.. i dont know how to explain.. =.="

anyways.. im starting my hello baby marathon again... =.=" and surprisingly! youtube is cooperating with me! yes!!! muahahaa! =) which means more vids! =)

mozzilla download is not helping at all.... tried downloading one episode of hello baby... and PHAILED... nevermind.... i shall keep trying till i get it! =) NEVER GIVE UP

ok now for the vids.. here's episode 14... XD











ok! i shall share episode 15 when i finish watching it.. =) so for now... enjoy!

the 95th post...

yeah! its my 95th post! woohoo! *claps alone* *wind blows*

anyways.... went to malacca today... the trip was awesome! left for malaca at 12.30 and reached home abt 10pm... tiring..

and now.... time for snsd's hello baby! haha... here's ep 12... its divided into 6 parts so... do enjoy the EPIC cuteness... =)














*squirms over tiffany's cuteness*

lol.. haha...

time for more youtube surfing! =)

merry Christmas!

merry Christmas everyone! yup i got what i wanted... a flashlight.. haha...

anyways... here are some vids of my darling tiffany.. =P

ok maybe just one more vid =)

im officially addicted

to snsd... to be more specific... TIFFANY~




epic cuteness...

i just realized i have this thing for cuteness... >.<
and i spent idontknowhowmanyhours watching star king.. >.<
and ive just realized its Christmas Eve already.... which means time is really flying...
anyways... here are some vids for everyone! enjoy! =)















sry their not in order... but do enjoy it! =)


merry Christmas~

drools*

yes thats why! tiffany!!! tiffany!! fany fany fany!!! she's so cute!




cute?

ok now time for L4D2!!! woohoo!!

bananananananannanana

ignore the title lol.... =) i'll explain later...

so back to reality... Christmas is coming and im officially broke... i say again BROKE..
BRAVO-ROMEO-OSCAR-KILO-ECHO- BROKE! i better start saving up....

anyways... been daydreaming a lot lately... i practically daydream about almost anything... and recently.... i dreamt about my future... yeah... and i tell ya.... it was crazy.... and weird at the same time..

plus.. ive been sleeping at ungodly hours and waking up in the afternoon.... i feel like a skinny pig... XD

ok confession time....

even though this will sound dumb.. and make me look and feel like a complete idiot..
wth... so here it is...

i still have that feeling(i dont knw why)... even though i saw u walk away beside that lucky guy... sure i felt disappointed but.... im glad we're still friends.. thats all that matters... =)

right?
confession time over~

so ok... about the title... you might be asking wahy bananas? well this is why....




and to top it of....




hahaa.. hope u enjoyed my randomness.... especially you... =)

banananannanaannanannannaa

Boo-ba-doo-ba-doop!

LOL... anyways.... thats all for today...

p.s: will try to update as frequent as possible... =)

chocolate loveeeeeee........

i got you babe~
i call, i call it chocolate lovee..~~

lol... snsd-ing.... =P

thinking of wat to write here....

i'll back with fresh ideas at nite!

see ya then! =)

its december...

and i've not studied at all... PLANNED to study.. BUT PHAILED EPICALLY...

damn... my holidays! wasted all of it on the computer... rotting in front of it is not healthy at all.. i repeat NOT HEALTHY JEREMY!

and... i PLANNED to go to the gym... BUT once again PHAILED...

better start studying and exercising... my brains need to be smart.. so does my biceps... LOL...

speaking of plans....

PLAN A or PLAN B... nvm if u dont understand.. =P

ponders*

hmmm....

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!!!!

all i want for Christmas is youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu..... kiddin...

somehow i want a random inanimate object.....

likeeee.. a flashlight....

dont ask why...

anyways.. cant wait! =)

post camp fever

yesh.. im having the post camp fever!! i miss camp! i miss adventure! i seriously gotta find something productive to do during the holidays.... any outings just call me! =)

dang results! my results isnt up to level yet... well at least its better than before.... time is something i lack right now and next year's SPM!!!! shit! better start brushing up on my studies or i'll suffer in form 5....

i think i should just let go..... i beginning to doubt if it'll be successful..... i keep day dreaming...... ITS NOT GOOD! i remembered once when i was day dreaming in the lrt and then ended up going to miharja instead of cheras.... u see how misleading it is! damn! i seriously gotta get back into the real world.....

damn it.... i just thought about you..... and you.... ahhh!!! this is NOT GOOD! its either one or none... pfffttt.......

i'll just wait for whats installed for me...

till then... good nite! =)

kapoof

second chance? no such thing... my second chance is GONE... ahhhh whatever....

i tot u were my friend... but was wrong... what happened? no comforting words.. no words of wisdom.. no words of encouragement.. NOTHING... anyhow.. i forgive ya...

so where to now?

what should i do?

carry on with life of course.. no use crying over spilled milk... what is done is done....

let it be~

my life moves on...

move along~ move along just to make it through...

time to go to a corner and curl up into a ball and scream....

maybe i should just sleep off the disappointment...

anyhow... have a good day.... or night..


~~
Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man~







disappointed kid~

1. Put your Window Media Player/iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.




IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?

civilization

by the andrew sisters



HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

boogie man

by sid philips




WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

im tickled pink

by jack shaindlin


WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

blood upon the risers

by 82nd airborne

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

maybe

by the ink spots


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

when i see you smile

by firehouse



WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

when will i see your face again


by jamie scott




WHAT IS 2+2?

a wonderful guy


by tex beneke


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

by lets go sunning





WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

uprising

by muse


WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

rhythm for you

by eddy christiani and frans poptie


WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

jolly days

by gerhard trede

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

anything goes

by cole porter



WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

i dont want to set the world on fire

by the ink spots



WHAT WILL YOU DANCE AT YOUR WEDDING?

happy times

by bob crosby




WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

way back home

by bob crosby


WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

made


by jamie scott



WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

mighty mighty man

by roy brown



WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?

into each life some rain must fall

by ella fitzgerald


HOW WILL YOU DIE?

easy living

by billie holiday


WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?

gee

by snsd


WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?

swing doors

by allan gray



WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?

gives you hell

by all american rejects



WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?

move along

by all american rejects


WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?

dirty little secret

by all american rejects




DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?

God save our queen

by royal marines band



IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?

i wanna

by all american rejects


WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?

love drunk

by boys like girls


this tag is fun.. those who wants to take it go ahead! =)

what a day....

hey! what a day! was sooo tired yesterday.. was snapping photos like crazy.... time really flies... graduation day 2008 felt like last week... and then yesterday 2009... next thing ya knw it'll be me next.. fishpaste! how i wish time could slow down a bit.. i have to enjoy every bit of me life! its already 12+ am see what im talking about?? flies so fast! im sure gonna miss my friends when they leave.... in like 1 more month?

My hormone level is equivalent to the amount of energy produce during a nuclear fission.. yes imagine it! but i just fell so... so.... so... empty? yes empty.. no idea why..

still stuck in the middle... standing at a crossroad.. which way to choose? im clueless..

some lyrics to fill in my empty post... and my empty head...

-----------------------------------------------------------

jamie scott and the town- when will i see your face again.

Here I Am, everyday
Since you said, you’d come again,
But it’s not fair, cos’ you’re not here,
I wait in vain, but nothing has challanged,

I’m a flower, soaking in the Rain,
If I could wish one thing, I’d hear you call my name,

So when will I see your face again,
When will you touch my life again (ohh yeah),
When will I breathe you in again
I think I love you …will I see your face again,

Little thing, like the rain coming,
She looked at me a certain kind of way,
Tell me girl, where are you now,
‘Cos I don’t know how much longer I can wait,

I’m a dreamer, waiting for the sun,
When you’re coming in, I know my life’s begun,
Tell me girl…

When will I see your face again (ohh yeaaah),
When will you touch my life again (ummm um),
When will I breathe you in again,
I think I love you, will I see your face again,

You know that all my life I’ve been waiting,
Waiting for some, someone like you to love me,
You can’t come by like an angel, into my life,
And then fly away, fly away,

Oh honey, cos I, Uh baby, ba ba doo yeah, oh ooh,
Sing, I’ve only seen youuu, oh, I said, uh huh, I said I said, yeah (woo)

When will I see your face again (I wanna see you once in my life),
When will you touch my life again, (wanna see you twice in my life),
When Will I Breathe You In Again (ohhh),
I think I love you, will I see your face again,

I said, see bap pa da doo ba ba
Bap ba do yeah, that’s what we do yeaahhh
When will I see your face again my friend,
Oh yeah, I think you gotta let me know yeah,
Oh yeah

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goodnite

random pictures..

huhuh


oops!


cats pee!?


lol frog piss...


nice! these are actually oasis!



LOL BALLS!


haha


phone for ur phone...


this is a actually prison in austria... 5-star prison that is.. =)



haaahahahaa! pity the guy!



this is actually soap! that looks like poop.... coffee flavor lol...




this is totally EPIC!!



these are soaps! dont eat them!



bacon soaps!




interesting..



tinyyyyy! has to be seen under a microscope..



mogu.... rock mogu....



lol..



interestin... =) this is in uruguay..



haha! i would love to try this!



very powderful english.. lol..



pushhhhhh!



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awwwwh


ouch!



cute!!



glowing mushroom!




underpants for your hands! hehe



this one is epic! =)



hope ya'll enjoyed it! =)

the random update

hey ppl! yes im back.. the past 3 weeks were torturing.. and im glad its finally over.. crap! i dont know what to write now... after about a month not blogging.. ive lost my blogging skill... crap... anyhow.. holidays are here... about 5 days.. minus yesterday 4days left... and i have EL project to do... does anyone knows how to draw nice comic size human?? i need help.. seriously...

i think im addicted to facebook...

i miss you...

i need a pair of Oakleys!

i want an ipod touch!

i need pimple cream..

i feel like pinching the bloody pimple out..

my hair is long...

im HOT

im COLD

im WARM

sry ppl.. forgive my randomness.. told ya it was gonna be a random update... heh heh..

anyone planning any outings or lepak session? remember to call me! im kinda bored... =)

ok i'll stop here.. i'll update another one later...

Adiós

Ka kite ano

Haere ra

Annyong-hi kyeshipshio!

Tschüß!

Aloha kãkou!

im back!

yeah im back from Penang.. the trip was awesome!!! ate almost every hour... curry, laksa, CKT(char kuay teow), and loads of stuff.... still missing the food... oh yah.. i rode a jet ski for the 1st time... super awesome..... it was crazy fast and the adrenalin was just fantastic!!!! =) loads of tourist there.... was kinda disappointed coz we couldnt go up penang hill... the tram was busted.. anyhow.. the trip was still awesome... i planned.. PLANNED to read my physics there... but i just ended bringing it there for nthing... physics! gotta study... can anyone help me with physics? i dont understand heat... its justs heats me up lol.. anyhow hopefully i can understand it by today... if not im dead... omg i just realized its already thurs.. crap! time is running out... someone help meeeee!! brains gonna go ka-put soon..

books that i doubt exist..

physics in 5 mins

how to pay attention in cik hanizah's class...

how not to pay attention in physics and score A

score A by hibernation

how to ace physics by not knowing physics at all

physics chemistry and biology in 10 mins



haha.. just being crappy.. anyways.. time for dinner! ciao!

i'll be back

im off to Penang for 3 days... =P cant wait.. =) dont miss me ya! ^-^

and yeah.. happy b'day to Kay Yan again.. =)

exams are coming.. YEAR E.N.D EXAMS... i didnt really touch any books yet.. just read some irrelevant novels... better start studying.. better focus.. better stay away from the comp(75% chance i'll not happen)... get my mind straight..
i just cant stop thinking of.... YOU

sometimes i feel that im pretty dumb..

chuck norris frenzy

-If you spell Chuck Norris in Scrabble, you win. Forever.

-Chuck Norris can kill two stones with one bird.

-Chuck Norris can hit you so hard that he can actually alter your DNA. Decades from now your descendants will occasionally clutch their heads and yell "What The Hell was That?"

-Time waits for no man. Unless that man is Chuck Norris.

-Chuck Norris destroyed the periodic table, because he only recognizes the element of surprise.

-There is no chin behind Chuck Norris’ beard. There is only another fist.

-Chuck Norris does not get frostbite. Chuck Norris bites frost

-Chuck Norris IS RIGHT BEHIND YOU.

-Chuck Norris is capable of photosynthesis.

-Einstein's original Theory of Relativity was; if Chuck Norris kicks you, your relatives will feel it.

-Chuck Norris can MAKE water run uphill.

-Chuck Norris floats like a butterfly and stings like a tomahawk missile. At mach 3. In the face.

-Chuck Norris’ IQ can be expressed simply as a sideways eight

-Most people have 23 pairs of chromosomes. Chuck Norris has 72... and they're all poisonous.

-The leading causes of death in the United States are: 1. Heart Disease 2. Chuck Norris 3. Cancer.

-When Chuck Norris was denied an Egg McMuffin at McDonald's because it was 10:35, he roundhouse kicked the store so hard it became a Wendy's.

-When Chuck Norris falls in water, Chuck Norris doesn't get wet. Water gets Chuck Norris.

-Scientists have estimated that the energy given off during the Big Bang is roughly equal to 1CNRhK (Chuck Norris Roundhouse Kick)

-In honor of Chuck Norris, all McDonald's in Texas have an even larger size than the super-size. When ordering, just ask to be Chucksized.

-Chuck Norris can divide by zero.

-If tapped, a Chuck Norris roundhouse kick could power the country of Australia for 44 minutes.

-A picture is worth a thousand words. A Chuck Norris is worth 1 billion words.

-Newton's Third Law is wrong: Although it states that for each action, there is an equal and opposite reaction, there is no force equal in reaction to a Chuck Norris roundhouse kick.

-Chuck Norris doesnt shave; he kicks himself in the face. The only thing that can cut Chuck Norris is Chuck Norris.

-When taking the SAT, write "Chuck Norris" for every answer. You will score over 8000.

-Chuck Norris ordered a Big Mac at Burger King, and got one.

-Chuck Norris doesn't bowl strikes, he just knocks down one pin and the other nine faint.

-The Bermuda Triangle used to be the Bermuda Square, until Chuck Norris Roundhouse kicked one of the corners off.

-Chuck Norris once ate an entire bottle of sleeping pills. They made him blink.

-Chuck Norris can touch MC Hammer.

-Chuck Norris is responsible for China's over-population. He hosted a Karate tournament in Beijing and all women within 1,000 miles became pregnant instantly.

-Some people wear Superman pajamas. Superman wears Chuck Norris pajamas.

-Chuck Norris roundhouse kicks don't really kill people. They wipe out their entire existence from the space-time continuum.

-Science Fact: Roundhouse kicks are comprised primarily of an element called Chucktanium.

-Wo hu cang long. The translation from Mandarin Chinese reads: "Crouching Chuck, Hidden Norris"

-Chuck Norris can set ants on fire with a magnifying glass. At night.

-According to Einstein's theory of relativity, Chuck Norris can actually roundhouse kick you yesterday.

-Chuck Norris recently had the idea to sell his urine as a canned beverage. We know this beverage as Red Bull.

-Chuck Norris invented a language that incorporates karate and roundhouse kicks. So next time Chuck Norris is kicking your ass, don’t be offended or hurt, he may be just trying to tell you he likes your hat.

-Google won't search for Chuck Norris because it knows you don't find Chuck Norris, he finds you.

-As President Roosevelt said: "We have nothing to fear but fear itself. And Chuck Norris."

-Chuck Norris smells what the Rock is cooking... because the Rock is Chuck Norris' personal chef.

Chuck Norris built a time machine and went back in time to stop the JFK assassination. As Oswald shot, Chuck met all three bullets with his beard, deflecting them. JFK's head exploded out of sheer amazement.

-When Bruce Banner gets mad, he turns into the Hulk. When the Hulk gets mad, he turns into Chuck Norris.

-Chuck Norris once kicked a horse in the chin. Its decendants are known today as Giraffes.

-Sticks and stones may break your bones, but a Chuck Norris glare will liquefy your kidneys.

-In a fight between Batman and Darth Vader, the winner would be Chuck Norris.

-Everybody loves Raymond. Except Chuck Norris.

-The original title for Alien vs. Predator was Alien and Predator vs Chuck Norris. The film was cancelled shortly after going into preproduction. No one would pay nine dollars to see a movie fourteen seconds long.

-Give a man a fish, and you will feed him for a day. Give a man anything that is better than a fish, and Chuck Norris will beat his ass and take it.

-Chuck Norris’ roundhouse kick is so powerful, it can be seen from outer space by the naked eye.

-He who lives by the sword, dies by the sword. He who lives by Chuck Norris, dies by the roundhouse kick.

-Chuck Norris does, in fact, live in a round house.

-The square root of Chuck Norris is pain. Do not try to square Chuck Norris, the result is death.

-To be or not to be? That is the question. The answer? Chuck Norris.

-In the Words of Julius Caesar, "Veni, Vidi, Vici, Chuck Norris". Translation: I came, I saw, and I was roundhouse-kicked in the face by Chuck Norris.

-As an infant, Chuck Norris' parents gave him a toy hammer. He gave the world Stonehenge.

-There are only two things that can cut diamonds: other diamonds, and Chuck Norris.

-Chuck Norris has to register every part of his body as a separate lethal weapon. His spleen is considered a concealed weapon in over 50 states.

-Godzilla is a Japanese rendition of Chuck Norris' first visit to Tokyo.

-When Arnold says the line "I'll be back" in the first Terminator movie it is implied that is he going to ask Chuck Norris for help.

-TNT was originally developed by Chuck Norris to cure indigestion.

-Love does not hurt. Chuck Norris does.

-The pen is mightier than the sword, but only if the pen is held by Chuck Norris.

-Chuck Norris knows the last digit of pi.

-In the first Jurassic Park movie, the Tyrannosaurus Rex wasn't chasing the jeep. Chuck Norris was chasing the Tyrannosaurus AND the jeep.

-There are now five cup sizes at Starbucks: Short, Tall, Grande, Venti, and Chuck Norris.

-Chuck Norris can jump-start a car using jumper cables attached to his nipples.

-Chuck Norris got a perfect score on his SAT's, simply by writing Chuck Norris for every answer.

-People have often asked the United States, What is your secret weapon against terrorists? We simply reply...Chuck Norris

-Chuck Norris eats lightning and farts thunder.

-Lightning never strikes twice in one place because Chuck Norris is looking for it.

-Chuck norris doesnt go at the speed of light, he goes at the speed of Norris

-Chuck Norris make onions CRY!!!

-Chuck Norris is not only a noun, but a verb.

old...

yea im old... im finally sixty sixteen now.. =) yea enjoying life! i still cant decide what i want for my b'day... still thinking...

stuff i wanna have..
1. ipod touch - mum says wait till spm.. =.=
2. canon dslr camera - mum says see first.. =.=
3. a pair of shoes - christmas.. =.=

i still dunno wat i want lar! ish ish...
maybe a pair of awesome shades?
or maybe a chain?
or maybe you a book?

ahhh wat a dilemma...

=.=

IF

IF im asleep rite now.. i wont fall asleep in class
IF im asleep rite now.... i wont have friggin pimples..
IF im asleep rite now... i'll enjoy the comfort of me bed..

IF i eat chocolates now.. I'll crap the next morning... who cares... =)
IF i eat yogurt rite now... I'll crap even more the next morning.. =)
IF i eat something rite now.. I'll be satisfied..

lol.. just being random..

anyhow..

Premise 1: Setember is here!
Premise 2: exams in September
Conclusion: EXAMS IN SEPTEMBER!

lol..

i have to blow the dust of my books.. its been lying on the table for months.. lonely,cold,sad.... therefore the book will be my new friend! =) hehe..

anyhow.. time for me to get my CHOCOLATES.. and get some sleep.. =) nites!

its two thirty in the MORNING....

hello ppl! yea.. i've been addicted to awesome quotes lately.. yea.. u might have already noticed it... =) i got it all from this site>>>> http://www.famousquotesandauthors.com/

u should check it out! =)

All American Reject rocks! woo hooo!

funny ones..

B.I.B.L.E. = Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth.
-Anonymous-

Leisure time is when your wife can't find you
-Anonymous-

Condoms aren't completely safe. A friend of mine was wearing one . . . and got hit by a bus.
-Bob Rubin-

Everybody should believe in something; I believe I'll have another drink.
-Anonymous-

The best way to remember your wife's birthday is to forget it once.
-E. Joseph Cossman-

I've always been well liked. I was so popular in school, everybody hated me.
-Anonymous-


LOL.. such awesome quotes! haha.. =)

more quotes!

Don't let other people tell you what you want.
Pat Riley

What one has to do usually can be done.
Eleanor Roosevelt

As long as I have a want, I have a reason for living. Satisfaction is death.
George Bernard Shaw

I want to do it because I want to do it.
Amelia Earhart

Above all things have devoted love among yourselves, for love covers a multitude of sins.
Bible

A genius is one who shoots at something no one else can see-and hits it.
Anonymous

To hope is to enjoy.
Jacques Delille

Extreme hopes are born of extreme misery.
Bertrand Russell

Nine-tenths of wisdom consists in being wise in time.
Theodore Roosevelt

What can't be cured, must be endured.
old saying

Respect is love in plain clothes.
Frankie Byrne

Never let go of that fiery sadness called desire.
Patti Smith


stay strong~~

ka poof~~

im officially
crushed..
disappointed...
hopeless...
failure...
f'd up beyond all recognition..
back-stabbed...
double-crossed...
etc etc etc..

what am i lack of? what does it have that i dont have?

i thought i had it... yea thought.. but wadya knw? i f'ing screwed up.... i always said to myself.. never give up, never give up.... but now im lost.... im not sure whether to give up or not.. the feeling just wont go away.. God help me! guide me.. teach me how... what should i do? i feel so lost... im sorry everyone for posting this emotional post but heck.. thats what im feleing right now.. i've never been this disappointed before... its by far my worst breakdown ever... and if ur reading this post... its not your fault.. dont feel guilty about it... i kept thinking whether this would be a stupid thing to do.. and yeah.. it is.. stupid rite? is it worth it? i have no idea...
anyhow... my feelings for you is still strong.. the feeling started since last year.. as time passed, it grew... grew stronger... it developed over a year.. i have expressed my feelings for you... i waited.. waited waited... i was actually waiting for nothing at all.... waiting for empty hope..
its like hoping for winter in malaysia... but apparently, someone came and took her away from me.... someone who i looked up to.. i was back-stabbed.. double-crossed... u knew about it.. but kept quiet.. and made me look like a fool... true.. a fool i was... i was jealous at first.. but then it grew and it became hate... i never liked hating people... but this time i cant help it.. i know its wrong to hate and be jealous... but im trying my best not to.. why is this always happening to me? this has got to be the 2nd time.. the only difference is that this hurts even more than the 1st.. i dont mean to condemn anyone here.. nor demand something from you... im just here to express my feelings... thats all... im sorry u have to read this utter crap.....

as i was typing this, i had a flashback of the times we had together.. eventhough we werent actually together.. i enjoyed it... there were times when we we're together but u didnt notice me at all... i was nobody.. a stranger... if u were ashamed of me.. im sorry..
when u said "we're still friends" i knew at that point i've failed.... but i my hard head kept trying... u made me do unbelievable stuff... stuff that i cant believe... ur amazing and still are...

i still have no idea what to do.. should i? or should i not?

and the best part is... my own brother sided them.. my brother who i turn to for advice.. ive been double back-stabbed and triple-crossed... i thought i could count on you.. but i was wrong... i was never right.. im a fool being fooled= an uber foolish person....im such a fool... at least there are still friends who i can count on to assist me.
Tan.. we've been friends since primary 1.. it has been 9 years..... our friendship still stands strong... i thank you for being there for me when i needed help...

ive planned to call her... and now im doubting whether to go on with my plans... if i do... what should is say? if do what will she say?

pimples reaching to the surface of my face like molten lava trying to burst through the surface of the earth....

i asked my friend whether if i have a chance with her... she said 'no'

all of this must mean something...

God must be telling me something.. i know theres a message behind all this...
i still cant find out.. still lost as ever...

the time is 0424 hours... i cant and wont sleep until all the feelings in my heart is expressed...

im doubting u'll ever see me again after reading this...

for your information...

the hard headed,foolish, stupid, clueless,double back-stabbed, triple-crossed boy is still waiting for "the" reply...

ive decided... keep moving forward.. im a loser if i give up without trying..

the time is 0431 hours...

its very late... i should be sleeping now...

i shall end here with some meaningful quotes...



Faith is the continuation of reason.

William Adams


Patience is the art of hoping.
Vauvenargues

Make yourself necessary to somebody.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.
Anonymous

Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.
Hermann Hesse

Where the willingness is great, the difficulties cannot be great.
Niccolo Machiavelli

He that can have patience can have what he will
Benjamin Franklin

Whenever you are confronted with an opponent, conquer him with love.

Mahatma Gandhi



the time is 0500 hours

good morning!

i know ya'll be wondering why is Jeremy still awake?? ok i dont even know why im still awake....
holidays holidays.... can u believe it? just a snap and its wednesday.. crap...
my daily routine is kinda sucky... example..
wake up
eat
computer
eat
computer
eat
tv
computer
eat
computer
computer
computer
sleep

so lifeless rite? uggh! anyone got plans to go out? any outings? call me if theres any.. =)
i miss someone rite now... yes at this very moment.. i miss someone...

i feel like....... nvm...
i think i'll end here... =)

now what?

holidays la what else...
yes!
no!
one week of fun... not!
year end exams is in the end of september...
wake me up when september ends... haha...

anyways... school was fine today...
everyday i kept asking myself the same friggin question..
when? who? why? how....? im always asking myself that....
cause without you things go hazy...

imagine all the people.........
living for today......


a rough idea of what im going through right now....

16 more days till i turn 16! yes!
add maths hw.. no!
tuition.. no!
holidays.. yes!
one week without you.. no!
wallet empty... no!
a rival.. no!

ratio of yes to no is 2:5


now lets talk about hugging... why? cause thats the 1st word that came into my mind...
so... how long has been since i last hug?
new years day... sad huh... ?
hugging feels nice.... its like a medicine for everything... when your down.. hug someone or something or anything... lol... especially a big soft squishy soft toy.... hahaa... hugging someone shows that you care for that person... or u just wanna squish them.... lol.. i dunno la... im making this up as i type... correct me if im wrong... =) so think again.. (quote from nat geo..) haha.. =)
the world is just awesome! (discovery channel slogan)

darn internet connection...

see ya soon ppl! =)